{The Father of mercies and God of all comfort}

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Désolée

Today was Senior Send-off Sunday at my church. The seniors stood up and we were prayed over, much needed prayer of course. We were also given a book called "Just Do Something" by Kevin DeYoung. I read the forward and the first chapter and it was exactly what I needed. I've been petitioning God for several months about showing me where he wants me to go and what he wants me to be doing and to no avail all I hear is WAIT. Well I go through these cycles of deciding to let God have my worries and anxieties, but then I pick them back up and freak out. At the end of last week, I decide to give it back to God. I prayed for peace and told him I'm not okay with things right now and I'm not okay with having a hard life. I woke up the next morning, as many times before, with utter peace in my heart. I did not fret over the trivialities of life, but let God destroy those anxious thoughts. I know that I cannot keep them at bay, but I will depend on God each day to renew this spirit of peace in me.

Back to the book. The first chapter says "my goal is...to help you hear God telling you to get off the long road to nowhere and finally make a decision". This brings me to my fears of graduating college and growing up. After five years of being educated it is time. I've been thinking lately that maybe getting married now was not the best decision, that maybe we should have stuck with December. This is not to say that the person I'm marrying is not right, because he is SO right, but I mean the timing; it's always been off for us. Anyway, this quote showed me that this is right and the timing is not an obstacle. So what if we're not going to have money and my job will not be ideal and Ryan will still be in school! God said do something, so I'm encouraged with this book already! Ryan and I are right, so this decision is made and it will glorify God. He is the reason for waking up in the morning and sharing this passion with my husband (in 76 days) will bring us to rejoice in Christ!
Assurance of our faith in Christ

1 comment:

Lisa Mae said...

Hello. I came across your blog because my friend Mariel is one of your followers. I just wanted to say that this post was super encouraging because, though circumstances are different, I seem to be going through the same thing at this point in my life. Sometimes it's hard to know where to go or what you're supposed to be doing and making big decisions can be scary.Anyway, thanks for sharing!